Horrible beyond conception
was the change which had taken
place in my best friend, Crawford
Tillinghast. I had not seen
him since that day, two months
and a half before, when he told
me toward what goal his physical
and metaphysical researches
were leading; when he had answered
my awed and almost frightened
remonstrances by driving me
from his laboratory and his
house in a burst of fanatical
rage.
I had known that he now remained
mostly shut in the attic laboratory
with that accursed electrical
machine, eating little and excluding
even the servants, but I had
not thought that a brief period
of ten weeks could so alter
and disfigure any human creature.
It is not pleasant to see a
stout man suddenly grown thin,
and it is even worse when the
baggy skin becomes yellowed
or grayed, the eyes sunken,
circled, and uncannily glowing,
the forehead veined and corrugated,
and the hands tremulous and
twitching. And if added to this
there be a repellent unkemptness,
a wild disorder of dress, a
bushiness of dark hair white
at the roots, and an unchecked
growth of white beard on a face
once clean-shaven, the cumulative
effect is quite shocking.
But such was the aspect of Crawford
Tilllinghast on the night his
half coherent message brought
me to his door after my weeks
of exile; such was the specter
that trembled as it admitted
me, candle in hand, and glanced
furtively over its shoulder
as if fearful of unseen things
in the ancient, lonely house
set back from Benevolent Street.
That Crawford Tilinghast should
ever have studied science and
philosophy was a mistake. These
things should be left to the
frigid and impersonal investigator
for they offer two equally tragic
alternatives to the man of feeling
and action; despair, if he fail
in his quest, and terrors unutterable
and unimaginable if he succeed.
Tillinghast had once been the
prey of failure, solitary and
melancholy; but now I knew,
with nauseating fears of my
own, that he was the prey of
success. I had indeed warned
him ten weeks before, when he
burst forth with his tale of
what he felt himself about to
discover. He had been flushed
and excited then, talking in
a high and unnatural, though
always pedantic, voice.
"What do we know,"
he had said, "of the world
and the universe about us? Our
means of receiving impressions
are absurdly few, and our notions
of surrounding objects infinitely
narrow. We see things only as
we are constructed to see them,
and can gain no idea of their
absolute nature.
With five feeble senses we pretend
to comprehend the boundlessly
complex cosmos, yet other beings
with wider, stronger, or different
range of senses might not only
see very differently the things
we see, but might see and study
whole worlds of matter, energy,
and life which lie close at
hand yet can never be detected
with the senses we have. I have
always believed that such strange,
inaccessible worlds exist at
our very elbows, and now I believe
I have found a way to break
down the barriers."
I sat silently, incredulously
but with growing unease, and
he continued.
"I am not joking. Within
twenty-four hours that machine
near the table will generate
waves acting on unrecognized
sense organs that exist in us
as atrophied or rudimentary
vestiges. Those waves will open
up to us many vistas unknown
to man and several unknown to
anything we consider organic
life. We shall see that at which
dogs howl in the dark, and that
at which cats prick up their
ears after midnight. We shall
see these things, and other
things which no breathing creature
has yet seen. We shall overleap
time, space, and dimensions,
and without bodily motion peer
to the bottom of creation."
When Tillinghast said these
things I remonstrated, for I
knew him well enough to be frightened
rather than amused; but he was
a fanatic, and drove me from
the house. Now he was no less
a fanatic, but his desire to
speak had conquered his resentment,
and he had written me imperatively
in a hand I could scarcely recognize.
As I entered the abode of the
friend so suddenly metamorphosed
to a shivering gargoyle, I became
infected with the terror which
seemed stalking in all the shadows.
The words and beliefs expressed
ten weeks before seemed bodied
forth in the darkness beyond
the small circle of candle light,
and I sickened at the hollow,
altered voice of my host. I
wished the servants were about,
and did not like it when he
said they had all left three
days previously. It seemed strange
that old Gregory, at least,
should desert his master without
telling as tried a friend as
I. It was he who had given me
all the information I had of
Tillinghast after I was repulsed
in rage.
Yet I soon subordinated all
my fears to my growing curiosity
and fascination. Just what Crawford
Tillinghast now wished of me
I could only guess, but that
he had some stupendous secret
or discovery to impart, I could
not doubt. Before I had protested
at his unnatural pryings into
the unthinkable; now that he
had evidently succeeded to some
degree I almost shared his spirit,
terrible though the cost of
victory appeared. Up through
the dark emptiness of the house
I followed the bobbing candle
in the hand of this shaking
parody on man. The electricity
seemed to be turned off, and
when I asked my guide he said
it was for a definite reason.
"It would be too much...
I would not dare," he continued
to mutter. I especially noted
his new habit of muttering,
for it was not like him to talk
to himself. We entered the laboratory
in the attic, and I observed
that detestable electrical machine,
glowing with a sickly, sinister
violet luminosity. It was connected
with a powerful chemical battery,
but seemed to be receiving no
current; for I recalled that
in its experimental stage it
had sputtered and purred when
in action. In reply to my question
Tillinghast mumbled that this
permanent glow was not electrical
in any sense that I could understand.
He now seated me near the machine,
so that it was on my right,
and turned a switch somewhere
below the crowning cluster of
glass bulbs. The usual sputtering
began, turned to a whine, and
terminated in a drone so soft
as to suggest a return to silence.
Meanwhile the luminosity increased,
waned again, then assumed a
pale, outrè colour or
blend of colours which I could
neither place nor describe.
Tillinghast had been watching
me, and noted my puzzled expression.
"Do you know what that
is?" he whispered, "That
is ultra-violet." He chuckled
oddly at my surprise. "You
thought ultra-violet was invisible,
and so it is - but you can see
that and many other invisible
things now.
"Listen to me! The waves
from that thing are waking a
thousand sleeping senses in
us; senses which we inherit
from aeons of evolution from
the state of detached electrons
to the state of organic humanity.
I have seen the truth, and I
intend to show it to you. Do
you wonder how it will seem?
I will tell you."
Here Tillinghast seated himself
directly opposite me, blowing
out his candle and staring hideously
into my eyes.
"Your existing sense-organs
- ears first, I think - will
pick up many of the impressions,
for they are closely connected
with the dormant organs. Then
there will be others. You have
heard of the pineal gland? I
laugh at the shallow endocrinologist,
fellow-dupe and fellow-parvenu
of the Freudian. That gland
is the great sense organ of
organs - I have found out. It
is like sight in the end, and
transmits visual pictures to
the brain. If you are normal,
that is the way you ought to
get most of it... I mean get
most of the evidence from beyond."
I looked about the immense
attic room with the sloping
south wall, dimly lit by rays
which the every day eye cannot
see. The far corners were all
shadows and the whole place
took on a hazy unreality which
obscured its nature and invited
the imagination to symbolism
and phantasm. During the interval
that Tillinghast was long silent
I fancied myself in some vast
incredible temple of long-dead
gods; some vague edifice of
innumerable black stone columns
reaching up from a floor of
damp slabs to a cloudy height
beyond the range of my vision.
The picture was very vivid for
a while, but gradually gave
way to a more horrible conception;
that of utter, absolute solitude
in infinite, sightless, soundless
space.
There seemed to be a void, and
nothing more, and I felt a childish
fear which prompted me to draw
from my hip pocket the revolver
I carried after dark since the
night I was held up in East
Providence. Then from the farthermost
regions of remoteness, the sound
softly glided into existence.
It was infinitely faint, subtly
vibrant, and unmistakably musical,
but held a quality of surpassing
wildness which made its impact
feel like a delicate torture
of my whole body. I felt sensations
like those one feels when accidentally
scratching ground glass.
Simultaneously there developed
something like a cold draught,
which apparently swept past
me from the direction of the
distant sound. As I waited breathlessly
I perceived that both sound
and wind were increasing; the
effect being to give me an odd
notion of myself as tied to
a pair of rails in the path
of a gigantic approaching locomotive.
I began to speak to Tillinghast,
and as I did so all the unusual
impressions abruptly vanished.
I saw only the man, the glowing
machines, and the dim apartment.
Tillinghast was grinning repulsively
at the revolver which I had
almost unconsciously drawn,
but from his expression I was
sure he had seen and heard as
much as I, if not a great deal
more. I whispered what I had
experienced and he bade me to
remain as quiet and receptive
as possible.
"Don't move," he
cautioned, "for in these
rays we are able to be seen
as well as to see. I told you
the servants left, but I didn't
tell you how. It was that thick-witted
house-keeper - she turned on
the lights downstairs after
I had warned her not to, and
the wires picked up sympathetic
vibrations. It must have been
frightful - I could hear the
screams up here in spite of
all I was seeing and hearing
from another direction, and
later it was rather awful to
find those empty heaps of clothes
around the house. Mrs. Updike's
clothes were close to the front
hall switch - that's how I know
she did it. It got them all.
But so long as we don't move
we're fairly safe. Remember
we're dealing with a hideous
world in which we are practically
helpless... Keep still!"
The combined shock of the revelation
and of the abrupt command gave
me a kind of paralysis, and
in my terror my mind again opened
to the impressions coming from
what Tillinghast called "beyond."
I was now in a vortex of sound
and motion, with confused pictures
before my eyes. I saw the blurred
outlines of the room, but from
some point in space there seemed
to be pouring a seething column
of unrecognizable shapes or
clouds, penetrating the solid
roof at a point ahead and to
the right of me.
Then I glimpsed the temple-like
effect again, but this time
the pillars reached up into
an aerial ocean of light, which
sent down one blinding beam
along the path of the cloudy
column I had seen before. After
that the scene was almost wholly
kaleidoscopic, and in the jumble
of sights, sounds, and unidentified
sense-impressions I felt that
I was about to dissolve or in
some way lose the solid form.
One definite flash I shall always
remember.
I seemed for an instant to behold
a patch of strange night sky
filled with shining, revolving
spheres, and as it receded I
saw that the glowing suns formed
a constellation or galaxy of
settled shape; this shape being
the distorted face of Crawford
Tillinghast. At another time
I felt the huge animate things
brushing past me and occasionally
walking or drifting through
my supposedly solid body, and
thought I saw Tillinghast look
at them as though his better
trained senses could catch them
visually. I recalled what he
had said of the pineal gland,
and wondered what he saw with
this preternatural eye.
Suddenly I myself became possessed
of a kind of augmented sight.
Over and above the luminous
and shadowy chaos arose a picture
which, though vague, held the
elements of consistency and
permanence. It was indeed somewhat
familiar, for the unusual part
was superimposed upon the usual
terrestrial scene much as a
cinema view may be thrown upon
the painted curtain of a theater.
I saw the attic laboratory,
the electrical machine, and
the unsightly form of Tillinghast
opposite me; but of all the
space unoccupied by familiar
objects not one particle was
vacant. Indescribable shapes
both alive and otherwise were
mixed in disgusting disarray,
and close to every known thing
were whole worlds of alien,
unknown entities. It likewise
seemed that all the known things
entered into the composition
of other unknown things and
vice versa. Foremost among the
living objects were inky, jellyfish
monstrosities which flabbily
quivered in harmony with the
vibrations from the machine.
They were present in loathsome
profusion, and I saw to my horror
that they overlapped; that they
were semi-fluid and capable
of passing through one another
and through what we know as
solids. These things were never
still, but seemed ever floating
about with some malignant purpose.
Sometimes they appeared to devour
one another, the attacker launching
itself at its victim and instantaneously
obliterating the latter from
sight. Shudderingly I felt that
I knew what had obliterated
the unfortunate servants, and
could not exclude the thing
from my mind as I strove to
observe other properties of
the newly visible world that
lies unseen around us. But Tillinghast
had been watching me and was
speaking.
"You see them? You see
them? You see the things that
float and flop about you and
through you every moment of
your life? You see the creatures
that form what men call the
pure air and the blue sky? Have
I not succeeded in breaking
down the barrier; have I not
shown you worlds that no other
living men have seen?"
I heard his scream through the
horrible chaos, and looked at
the wild face thrust so offensively
close to mine. His eyes were
pits of flame, and they glared
at me with what I now saw was
overwhelming hatred. The machine
droned detestably.
"You think those floundering
things wiped out the servants?
Fool, they are harmless! But
the servants are gone, aren't
they? You tried to stop me;
you discouraged me when I needed
every drop of encouragement
I could get; you were afraid
of the cosmic truth, you damned
coward, but now I've got you!
What swept up the servants?
What made them scream so loud?...
Don't know, eh! You'll know
soon enough. Look at me - listen
to what I say - do you suppose
there are really any such things
as time and magnitude? Do you
fancy there are such things
as form or matter? I tell you,
I have struck depths that your
little brain can't picture.
I have seen beyond the bounds
of infinity and drawn down demons
from the stars... I have harnessed
the shadows that stride from
world to world to sow death
and madness... Space belongs
to me, do you hear? Things are
hunting me now - the things
that devour and dissolve - but
I know how to elude them. It
is you they will get, as they
got the servants... Stirring,
dear sir? I told you it was
dangerous to move, I have saved
you so far by telling you to
keep still - saved you to see
more sights and to listen to
me. If you had moved, they would
have been at you long ago. Don't
worry, they won't hurt you.
They didn't hurt the servants
- it was the seeing that made
the poor devils scream so. My
pets are not pretty, for they
come out of places where aesthetic
standards are - very different.
Disintegration is quite painless,
I assure you -- but I want you
to see them. I almost saw them,
but I knew how to stop. You
are curious? I always knew you
were no scientist. Trembling,
eh. Trembling with anxiety to
see the ultimate things I have
discovered. Why don't you move,
then? Tired? Well, don't worry,
my friend, for they are coming...
Look, look, curse you, look...
it's just over your left shoulder..."
What remains to be told is
very brief, and may be familiar
to you from the newspaper accounts.
The police heard a shot in the
old Tillinghast house and found
us there - Tillinghast dead
and me unconscious. They arrested
me because the revolver was
in my hand, but released me
in three hours, after they found
it was apoplexy which had finished
Tillinghast and saw that my
shot had been directed at the
noxious machine which now lay
hopelessly shattered on the
laboratory floor. I did not
tell very much of what I had
seen, for I feared the coroner
would be skeptical; but from
the evasive outline I did give,
the doctor told me that I had
undoubtedly been hypnotized
by the vindictive and homicidal
madman.
I wish I could believe that
doctor. It would help my shaky
nerves if I could dismiss what
I now have to think of the air
and the sky about and above
me. I never feel alone or comfortable,
and a hideous sense of pursuit
sometimes comes chillingly on
me when I am weary. What prevents
me from believing the doctor
is one simple fact - that the
police never found the bodies
of those servants whom they
say Crawford Tillinghast murdered.
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