I am writing this under an
appreciable mental strain, since
by tonight I shall be no more.
Penniless, and at the end of
my supply of the drug which
alone, makes life endurable,
I can bear the torture no longer;
and shall cast myself from this
garret window into the squalid
street below. Do not think from
my slavery to morphine that
I am a weakling or a degenerate.
When you have read these hastily
scrawled pages you may guess,
though never fully realise,
why it is that I must have forgetfulness
or death.
It was in one of the most open
and least frequented parts of
the broad Pacific that the packet
of which I was supercargo fell
a victim to the German sea-raider.
The great war was then at its
very beginning, and the ocean
forces of the Hun had not completely
sunk to their later degradation;
so that our vessel was made
a legitimate prize, whilst we
of her crew were treated with
all the fairness and consideration
due us as naval prisoners. So
liberal, indeed, was the discipline
of our captors, that five days
after we were taken I managed
to escape alone in a small boat
with water and provisions for
a good length of time.
When I finally found myself
adrift and free, I had but little
idea of my surroundings. Never
a competent navigator, I could
only guess vaguely by the sun
and stars that I was somewhat
south of the equator. Of the
longitude I knew nothing, and
no island or coastline was in
sight. The weather kept fair,
and for uncounted days I drifted
aimlessly beneath the scorching
sun; waiting either for some
passing ship, or to be cast
on the shores of some habitable
land. But neither ship nor land
appeared, and I began to despair
in my solitude upon the heaving
vastness of unbroken blue.
The change happened whilst
I slept. Its details I shall
never know; for my slumber,
though troubled and dream-infested,
was continuous. When at last
I awakened, it was to discover
myself half sucked into a slimy
expanse of hellish black mire
which extended about me in monotonous
undulations as far as I could
see, and in which my boat lay
grounded some distance away.
Though one might well imagine
that my first sensation would
be of wonder at so prodigious
and unexpected a transformation
of scenery, I was in reality
more horrified than astonished;
for there was in the air and
in the rotting soil a sinister
quality which chilled me to
the very core. The region was
putrid with the carcasses of
decaying fish, and of other
less describable things which
I saw protruding from the nasty
mud of the unending plain. Perhaps
I should not hope to convey
in mere words the unutterable
hideousness that can dwell in
absolute silence and barren
immensity. There was nothing
within hearing, and nothing
in sight save a vast reach of
black slime; yet the very completeness
of the stillness and the homogeneity
of the landscape oppressed me
with a nauseating fear.
The sun was blazing down from
a sky which seemed to me almost
black in its cloudless cruelty;
as though reflecting the inky
marsh beneath my feet. As I
crawled into the stranded boat
I realized that only one theory
could explain my position. Through
some unprecedented volcanic
upheaval, a portion of the ocean
floor must have been thrown
to the surface, exposing regions
which for innumerable millions
of years had lain hidden under
unfathomable watery depths.
So great was the extent of
the new land which had risen
beneath me, that I could not
detect the faintest noise of
the surging ocean, strain my
ears as I might.
Nor were there any sea-fowl
to prey upon the dead things.
For several hours I sat thinking
or brooding in the boat, which
lay upon its side and afforded
a slight shade as the sun moved
across the heavens. As the day
progressed, the ground lost
some of its stickiness, and
seemed likely to dry sufficiently
for travelling purposes in a
short time. That night I slept
but little, and the next day
I made for myself a pack containing
food and water, preparatory
to an overland journey in search
of the vanished sea and possible
rescue.
On the third morning I found
the soil dry enough to walk
upon with ease. The odour of
the fish was maddening; but
I was too much concerned with
graver things to mind so slight
an evil, and set out boldly
for an unknown goal. All day
I forged steadily westward,
guided by a far-away hummock
which rose higher than any other
elevation on the rolling desert.
That night I encamped, and on
the following day still travelled
toward the hummock, though that
object seemed scarcely nearer
than when I had first espied
it. By the fourth evening I
attained the base of the mound,
which turned out to be much
higher than it had appeared
from a distance, an intervening
valley setting it out in sharper
relief from the general surface.
Too weary to ascend, I slept
in the shadow of the hill.
I know not why my dreams were
so wild that night; but ere
the waning and fantastically
gibbous moon had risen far above
the eastern plain, I was awake
in a cold perspiration, determined
to sleep no more. Such visions
as I had experienced were too
much for me to endure again.
And in the glow of the moon
I saw how unwise I had been
to travel by day. Without the
glare of the parching sun, my
journey would have cost me less
energy; indeed, I now felt quite
able to perform the ascent which
had deterred me at sunset. Picking
up my pack, I started for the
crest of the eminence.
I have said that the unbroken
monotony of the rolling plain
was a source of vague horror
to me; but I think my horror
was greater when I gained the
summit of the mound and looked
down the other side into an
immeasurable pit or canyon,
whose black recesses the moon
had not yet soared high enough
to illumine. I felt myself on
the edge of the world, peering
over the rim into a fathomless
chaos of eternal night. Through
my terror ran curious reminiscences
of Paradise Lost, and Satan's
hideous climb through the unfashioned
realms of darkness.
As the moon climbed higher
in the sky, I began to see that
the slopes of the valley were
not quite so perpendicular as
I had imagined. Ledges and outcroppings
of rock afforded fairly easy
footholds for a descent, whilst
after a drop of a few hundred
feet, the declivity became very
gradual. Urged on by an impulse
which I cannot definitely analyse,
I scrambled with difficulty
down the rocks and stood on
the gentler slope beneath, gazing
into the Stygian deeps where
no light had yet penetrated.
All at once my attention was
captured by a vast and singular
object on the opposite slope,
which rose steeply about a hundred
yards ahead of me; an object
that gleamed whitely in the
newly bestowed rays of the ascending
moon. That it was merely a gigantic
piece of stone, I soon assured
myself; but I was conscious
of a distinct impression that
its contour and position were
not altogether the work of Nature.
A closer scrutiny filled me
with sensations I cannot express;
for despite its enormous magnitude,
and its position in an abyss
which had yawned at the bottom
of the sea since the world was
young, I perceived beyond a
doubt that the strange object
was a well-shaped monolith whose
massive bulk had known the workmanship
and perhaps the worship of living
and thinking creatures.
Dazed and frightened, yet not
without a certain thrill of
the scientist's or archaeologist's
delight, I examined my surroundings
more closely. The moon, now
near the zenith, shone weirdly
and vividly above the towering
steeps that hemmed in the chasm,
and revealed the fact that a
far-flung body of water flowed
at the bottom, winding out of
sight in both directions, and
almost lapping my feet as I
stood on the slope. Across the
chasm, the wavelets washed the
base of the Cyclopean monolith,
on whose surface I could now
trace both inscriptions and
crude sculptures. The writing
was in a system of hieroglyphics
unknown to me, and unlike anything
I had ever seen in books, consisting
for the most part of conventionalised
aquatic symbols such as fishes,
eels, octopi, crustaceans, molluscs,
whales and the like. Several
characters obviously represented
marine things which are unknown
to the modern world, but whose
decomposing forms I had observed
on the ocean-risen plain.
It was the pictorial carving,
however, that did most to hold
me spellbound.
Plainly visible across the
intervening water on account
of their enormous size was an
array of bas-reliefs whose subjects
would have excited the envy
of a Dore. I think that these
things were supposed to depict
men -- at least, a certain sort
of men; though the creatures
were shown disporting like fishes
in the waters of some marine
grotto, or paying homage at
some monolithic shrine which
appeared to be under the waves
as well. Of their faces and
forms I dare not speak in detail,
for the mere remembrance makes
me grow faint. Grotesque beyond
the imagination of a Poe or
a Bulwer, they were damnably
human in general outline despite
webbed hands and feet, shockingly
wide and flabby lips, glassy,
bulging eyes, and other features
less pleasant to recall. Curiously
enough, they seemed to have
been chiselled badly out of
proportion with their scenic
background; for one of the creatures
was shown in the act of killing
a whale represented as but little
larger than himself. I remarked,
as I say, their grotesqueness
and strange size; but in a moment
decided that they were merely
the imaginary gods of some primitive
fishing or seafaring tribe;
some tribe whose last descendant
had perished eras before the
first ancestor of the Piltdown
or Neanderthal Man was born.
Awestruck at this unexpected
glimpse into a past beyond the
conception of the most daring
anthropologist, I stood musing
whilst the moon cast queer reflections
on the silent channel before
me. Then suddenly I saw it.
With only a slight churning
to mark its rise to the surface,
the thing slid into view above
the dark waters. Vast, Polyphemus-like,
and loathsome, it darted like
a stupendous monster of nightmares
to the monolith, about which
it flung its gigantic scaly
arms, the while it bowed its
hideous head and gave vent to
certain measured sounds. I think
I went mad then.
Of my frantic ascent of the
slope and cliff, and of my delirious
journey back to the stranded
boat, I remember little. I believe
I sang a great deal, and laughed
oddly when I was unable to sing.
I have indistinct recollections
of a great storm some time after
I reached the boat; at any rate,
I knew that I heard peals of
thunder and other tones which
Nature utters only in her wildest
moods.
When I came out of the shadows
I was in a San Francisco hospital;
brought thither by the captain
of the American ship which had
picked up my boat in mid-ocean.
In my delirium I had said much,
but found that my words had
been given scant attention.
Of any land upheaval in the
Pacific, my rescuers knew nothing;
nor did I deem it necessary
to insist upon a thing which
I knew they could not believe.
Once I sought out a celebrated
ethnologist, and amused him
with peculiar questions regarding
the ancient Philistine legend
of Dagon, the Fish-God; but
soon perceiving that he was
hopelessly conventional, I did
not press my inquiries.
It is at night, especially
when the moon is gibbous and
waning, that I see the thing.
I tried morphine; but the drug
has given only transient surcease,
and has drawn me into its clutches
as a hopeless slave. So now
I am to end it all, having written
a full account for the information
or the contemptuous amusement
of my fellow-men. Often I ask
myself if it could not all have
been a pure phantasm -- a mere
freak of fever as I lay sun-stricken
and raving in the open boat
after my escape from the German
man-of-war. This I ask myself,
but ever does there come before
me a hideously vivid vision
in reply. I cannot think of
the deep sea without shuddering
at the nameless things that
may at this very moment be crawling
and floundering on its slimy
bed, worshipping their ancient
stone idols and carving their
own detestable likenesses on
submarine obelisks of water-soaked
granite. I dream of a day when
they may rise above the billows
to drag down in their reeking
talons the remnants of puny,
war-exhausted mankind -- of
a day when the land shall sink,
and the dark ocean floor shall
ascend amidst universal pandemonium.
The end is near. I hear a noise
at the door, as of some immense
slippery body lumbering against
it. It shall not find me. God,
that hand! The window! The window!
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